Tuesday, September 17, 2013

September 17, 2013


So my first two weeks in the field have been interesting. Not all too great. I have learned that I am in the place of the Devil, not even kidding this is a modern day Babylon. It is the land of iniquity. We seriously are laughed at every single step of the way. No one cares to hear our word. No one takes us seriously. About 80 percent of this place is Athiest. I live in a super poor area, everyone is from Ecuador and South America...I haven´t taught a single Spaniard. We are laughed at, spit at, yelled at...we almost get in fights.  It is not what I thought a mission was. I am here and I feel like we are in the times of old in the scriptures. These people are so wicked. We have some faithful members but not many good ones. You wouldn´t even be able to comprehend what I see daily. This place has us because Satan has won here, and we have to conquer it again. Almost daily my companion and I come home close to tears because all we do is fail. There is no success. We street contact over fifty hours a week because there is no one to teach. Everyone, give missionaries references because without member references this work cannot go on. Help them please! 

This is so hard you have no idea. I have taught three lessons out of complete miracles though just enough to keep my companion and I going. We have one baptismal date on the 28th -- a nine year old who isn´t a member his dad is and his mom is not. The mom does not want to be baptized but we finally taught her and the Spirit was literally shouting during that lesson. You wouldn´t even believe it. I asked her to be baptized as we are instructed to... She said no. She won´t listen to us now and it´s been almost a week or so. How can you deny these feelings? It was so strong. My companion and I were dying and struggling because she flaked on us one day and we were standing in the street murmuring so my companion said let´s pray and repent so we did and after we said "amen" I just said "Elder we need to contact everyone we see" so some little punk kid walks by and I was just like not him (though in my mind) but my companion said, "una pregunta usted una persona que cree en Dios?" and he said, "yes" and wanted to hear more, this never ever ever happens. We taught the first lesson right there and invited him to baptism and he said yes. We have to teach him the rest before we can truly set a date but wow, what a miracle. That has been our only true success so far. Having to report our numbers every week just really gets me down. This is the hardest thing of my life. I have never felt so discouraged. But one night while walking home after hours and hours of working I just had this overwhelming feeling in the street then I heard my name... No one was there so I shook it off then it happened again. Then I remembered a quote that Elder Perkis always says, Sacrifice brings forth the blessings of Heaven. The words just made me feel so much better and I could feel the angels around me. It´s not all like that though. It´s hard. It´s so hard. I wish I were better prepared. The mission isn´t all these amazing miracles. There are many but that´s not a mission. Be ready for trials in this life. And learn that money is not everything. Money is of Satan. Truly. I have been so humbled here. Be grateful for everything you have back home. You will never understand how blessed you are until He takes it all away. So be humble like unto a child. 


So a little update on weather, well it rains like every day and when it doesn´t rain it´s about 110 degrees so its hard hahah. All we eat is rice I swear. Some of the food is pretty good but mainly rice hahaha. I am serving a third world country mission I kid you not. Hahaha but everything is going along well.. half decently. I´m very homesick and miss everyone sooo much. But I hope all is well. I pray for you all so hard every single night. I love you all.


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